Loving Life with Diabetes

I give up, for now

I decided I am not going to stress about exercising and losing weight until after I can move. Right now I have a horrible math class to deal with and I have to try to make more money so I can pay off my debt in 2 months. I’m still going to watch what I eat as I find that is the hardest thing for me to get back into doing.

I just don’t need the added stress, If I can work out I will if not I’m not going to think about how bad it is that I can’t. I do kinda wish there was a get rich quick thing. People say it’s affilate marketing but I haven’t made anything from that yet. Oh well. I just have to work hard so I can move and maybe lose this weight.

Writing, depression and sucky days

I know I haven’t written in a few days. Our electricity has gone out twice over the last 3 days. I also have just been feeling horrible. I’m having a lot of personal issues right now and feel like nothing is ever going to be okay again. I’ve gained weight. I’m now at 282lbs and I feel it.

I just want to be happy and it seems like every time I do something happens to screw it up. I’m just to the point where I’m giving up on ever being happy and I’m going to submerge myself in working on my blogs and other things. I think it’s time to deal with the fact that I’m diabetic and no man will ever want me because of it. I’m just not the kind of girl that gets the good guys.

Why did I do it!

I’m sitting here writing this with a pretty high blood sugar. I have not checked it as I don’t want to know how high it is. It’s not over 200 I know that much I would be sick to my stomach right now if it were. It is over 150 though as I have a huge headache. I made the mistake of opening a bag of cheesy popcorn (the healthy stuff at least) and eating the whole thing. The equivalent of a meal for me.

I now remember why I hate having a high blood sugar. Tomorrow I am picking up healthy food and I’m going to try to get back on track. Diet meals here I come! I know it’s better to make your own food but it’s also very expensive. If I get diet meals on sale they cost 2.50 each and I don’t have to worry about measuring it. It’s only for lunch anyway and I try to actually cook something twice a week so it’s good. Once I move out of my mom’s I should be able to meal plan better.

Anyway I’m tired and off to bed. Hopefully I feel better in the morning.

The swelling is back, it stinks!

Before I was diagnosed with diabetes I was put on water pills by my Doctor because my feet and legs were swollen. They helped a lot and I was really happy when the swelling went down. Last night it came back and has not gone away yet, it’s gotten better but my feet are still swollen. I’m hoping that today I can get it to come down as I’m going grocery shopping and I have to walk to take pictures for a class. I guess we will have to see. I may have to call my doctor on Monday if it doesn’t go away.  I may even if it does as I’m having some stomach issues and pain in my chest. I’ve gotten the pain before and usually it goes away in a day, this time it’s sticking around. If it gets to bad I may end up in the emergency room. Fun!

Weight Loss Weigh in

Well I didn’t work that hard this week, but I did do a few things. I figured I must have lost something, but I didn’t.

Weight

277lbs

Today I also did my measurements. (in inches)

Hips 56

Thigh 28

Arms 16

Bust 51

The good news is I did lose 3 inches in my bust area so maybe I will start to lose other places also. It’s strange though, my measurements are the same, but I can fit into smaller paints that I couldn’t before. I own them so I know the sizes didn’t change. It’s just weird.

Food Prices and Diabetes

I use to think that the price of food was really bad so I always stocked up on the cheep stuff like mac and cheese and Raman noodles. Now I have to buy healthy and it’s horrible. It hasn’t been a huge problem until recently, now the price of gas is crazy and I have to pay $60 a week to drive to school. Hopefully when I get my new car next week that will change. Until then I have a limited amount of money to spend and no freezer room. It sucks as I use to get diet meals to eat. Not the best I know, but better then mac and cheese in a box.

Now my mom is back to buying in bulk and I have no room to put anything frozen so everything needs to be fresh. That means spending more money. I wish there was a way around this, but it’s not like I can just skip a meal. I think this is the worst part of being diabetic. Having no money and no help for something I can’t control. I have to eat, or I’ll get sick, but apparently that is not that big of a deal.  

Weight Loss weigh in, 3/31/08

This has been an interesting week. I didn’t get a huge chance to do much, but I did do about 15 minutes of weight lifting each day. The bad part is I didn’t lose a thing.

Weight

277lbs

This is really hard to see as I just can’t get passed this. I know a lot of it is stress and I don’t like working out with people home. I have always been told I can’t do anything and they keep telling me that so I just don’t do it when there around, then I don’t have to hear about it. My mom has gotten better, but I still don’t’ know.

The good news is I do think I’ve lost inches, we will see next week when I measure to find out.

Weight Loss Weigh In 1-14-07

Weight: 274lb

Measurements:

47″  Waist

56 ½”  Hips

16 ½”  Arms

52″  Bust

28″  Thigh

I think I have done a good job this week. Some of my measurements went up but I think I’m retaining water right now so I have to take that into account. I have lost weight so Go Me!

 

Lets lose some weight

Sounds good right. Well I am happy to say I started last year and did pretty well. I’ve lost about 55lbs and plan on losing more then that this year.

I’m going to try to post my weekly weight loss/weight gain on this blog. Yes I said weight gain. I’m being realistic, one I may not have time to do much one week, being a student and all. The other reason is that muscle weighs more then fat, if I gain muscle thats fine. I am also going to post my measurements as well. So I will hopefully see a difference week to week and month to month.

Weight loss info for this week:

weight 274 lbs

measurements: I can’t find my measuring tape so I will have these up next week ( I hope!)

If you would like to join me, I invite you to come back next Monday and leave a comment with a link to your weight loss post.  I am also going to be joining the biggest loser challenge for America, they want America to lose 1 million lbs. Think we can do it? I do.

If you want more info you can check it out here

Million Pound Match Up

Good luck!

Merry Christmas!

As I’m settling in after the holiday I have started to look back on what I did and did not do today. I ate a lot of food, cookies included, but I didn’t go way overboard. I splurged today and tomorrow I will continue on with my meal plans and follow them until next week. Next week will be harder as it’s both new years and my birthday. I am thinking about not doing the cake thing. Actually I probably won’t be doing anything.

But thats another story for another day. I wish you all a Merry Christmas and I hope you all had a great day. See you tomorrow!