Loving Life with Diabetes

Why did I do it!

I’m sitting here writing this with a pretty high blood sugar. I have not checked it as I don’t want to know how high it is. It’s not over 200 I know that much I would be sick to my stomach right now if it were. It is over 150 though as I have a huge headache. I made the mistake of opening a bag of cheesy popcorn (the healthy stuff at least) and eating the whole thing. The equivalent of a meal for me.

I now remember why I hate having a high blood sugar. Tomorrow I am picking up healthy food and I’m going to try to get back on track. Diet meals here I come! I know it’s better to make your own food but it’s also very expensive. If I get diet meals on sale they cost 2.50 each and I don’t have to worry about measuring it. It’s only for lunch anyway and I try to actually cook something twice a week so it’s good. Once I move out of my mom’s I should be able to meal plan better.

Anyway I’m tired and off to bed. Hopefully I feel better in the morning.

Water weight

I have decided that I have been very dehydrated but retaining water in my legs. Today I decided since I didn’t have school to drink as much water as possible. Well it’s working, the swelling has gone down in my legs and I feel better. My stomach is still giving me a few issues so I may have to call on that Tuesday. Hopefully it’s nothing serious.

I think many people who have weight issues need to look at how much water or liquid the consume. I’ve gone a little overboard but that was just a jump start. I believe most people don’t get all of the water or liquid they need in a day. The 8 glasses a day thing is silly, but for some people 5 glasses may be good plus the food and other things you drink have water. With summer coming you want to stay as hydrated as possible.

gaining weight

I’ve started gaining weight, I think I’m retaining water and it sucks. I’m not sure what to do about it yet it’s only been going on for about a week. It’s not as bad as it was last week, but it still sucks. Right now I’m just trying to drink a ton of water for a few days and see if that will help any. I need to lose weight, but I just don’t have any energy. I try to do some stuff but I get so worn out it’s crazy. I’m hoping once I’m done with school in 2 weeks it will get better. I’m doing all online classes so at least I won’t be eating out as much.

Fat people cause global warming.

I hate that statement too. Apparently some medical journal published this and I think someone should have thought about it before they did. I just don’t get why everyone blames everything on the fat person. Women are blamed more because their emotional and it’s all their own fault, men overeat just because there men, women need to control their emotional eating. Well I don’t do emotional eating, I eat because I’m hungry or bored. I’ve stopped that because of the diabetes, but I haven’t lost that much weight from it.

Anyway the article I read on ABC news talked about the article and looked at the research side who said they didn’t mean any harm by this study, and the other side that ask why blame fat people for something else. The study claims that overweight people eat more so that means more food needs to be produced and overweight people are more likely to ride in a car then walk. I think overweight people have enough problems, now instead of being told don’t eat food thats why your fat we are going to be told don’t do anything because your the reason for global warming. I just can’t believe that someone actually published this without thinking of the effect it would have on overweight people.

There are many healthy weight people that think overweight people are the cause of all evil and will do anything to make them feel horrible. This of course is more common in high school and college, but it’s still around everywhere. I experience it a lot. Men won’t date me because I’m not a size 2 and a trophy they can show off to their friends. You get passed over for jobs because people think your lazy, or you don’t’ look the part, the part being a thin beautiful women.

What do you think about this study? You can read more here

The swelling is back, it stinks!

Before I was diagnosed with diabetes I was put on water pills by my Doctor because my feet and legs were swollen. They helped a lot and I was really happy when the swelling went down. Last night it came back and has not gone away yet, it’s gotten better but my feet are still swollen. I’m hoping that today I can get it to come down as I’m going grocery shopping and I have to walk to take pictures for a class. I guess we will have to see. I may have to call my doctor on Monday if it doesn’t go away.  I may even if it does as I’m having some stomach issues and pain in my chest. I’ve gotten the pain before and usually it goes away in a day, this time it’s sticking around. If it gets to bad I may end up in the emergency room. Fun!

Starting over

I’ve decided I need to start my weight loss goal over. I haven’t lost anything in months and my blood sugar has been crazy. I don’t have the motivation I use to. I’m depressed, stressed and very unhappy and there is nothing I can do about it. I think it’s time to just let it go. Everyone tells me I have to do this for me and thats nice and all, but I’m not a me person. It’s hard for me to be a me person. I’m happy when everyone around me is happy. I’m still depressed, but at least I know the people around me are doing okay.

So I have some new goals to set for summer. I want to lose 10lbs. I want to find something I like to do, since I have been informed that I’m boring. I’m going to try very hard to be interested in something I use to be. I had hobbies once. I let them all go, nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I can’t afford to take classes or anything but I can try to buy something that will help me make things. Which brings me to my next goal. Buy a potters wheel. I use to love pottery as a teen and I think it would be a great way to relax. I know being able to relax is a great way to help your blood sugar.

My last goal is to get back into my exercise routine. I haven’t been doing well with that at all and I hate myself for it. I know it needs to be done. My body is even screaming at me. My plan is to get a set of belly dance videos and use those. I’m going to buy them this time instead of rent. That way I have them no matter what.

Anyone want to join me in setting some new goals for summer?

Mixed messages

I’m a diabetic and I’m a Christan, A year ago as of last week I was spared from death I believe because I was suppose to live for some reason. If I had gotten to the hospital just 2 hours after I did I would have had kidney failure and died.

This week though I have decided that God really has no idea what he/she is doing. As some of you who read this blog know I do paid posting on a few of my other blogs. It helps pay the bills and the gas for me to go to school. It’s helped with a few medical bills, but I would love to make more. Anyway yesterday and this morning I exercised. Guess what happened when I went to do that. Yesterday 3 $100+ jobs on pay per post dropped and I missed them, today one did and I spent the whole hour before I went to do my workout refreshing the page to try and get something.

So I have decided that God is punishing me for exercising. I just can’t figure out why. Once I do I’ll let you know. Of course he could just be telling me I shouldn’t be so greedy. who knows!

Weight loss weigh in

I have not been doing well at all. I have not had time or energy to get out and do anything. Most of it is I haven’t been feeling well. Everything hurt, I just didn’t feel right. Today I’m hoping to get up and do something. It’s hard to do when it’s rainy and blah outside, but it looks like it might clear up in an hour or two. Anyway here is my weight

Weight 278lbs

I was going to do my measurements this week, but I can’t find my thing to do it with, I blanked on the name, sorry. I’ll pick it up again next month. Hopefully there is more of a change then anyway.

What a waste

So I drove down to my appointment and guess what I had all of these questions and didn’t even get to see the doctor. The nurse brought me in gave me my birth control shot and I left. No questions nothing. Let’s say I’m not impressed. They also lost the fact that I had been in there 3 months ago. So now I’m thinking maybe it’s time for a new doctor. On the other hand I’m done with school next year and will probably be moving out of the state so I don’t’ know if I want to go find a new doctor, just to turn around and have to find another new one.

I’ll think about it. I’m just not very happy with all of this right now. I’m off to do some research on swollen stomachs since I couldn’t ask about it. I don’t’ really have the money to make another appointment. This kinda sucks.

Not feeling right

It’s a good thing I have a doctors appointment today. I have not been feeling right the last few weeks. Some may be stress, some may be that I haven’t been eating that well as I have been traveling to school a lot and eating out. I have a few things I need to talk to the doctor about, one is my lab work that came back with some abnormalities. The note I got just said test again in 3 months, but he has said if I’m coming in anyway that is all he will put, so I should get some info on that soon.

The other thing and one that has me wondering is that my stomach hurts. Okay it’s not really my stomach, but that area when I press down just a little on my right side it feels sore. it’s been that way for a few weeks now, but in the hospital and a week or so ago I was told my stomach looked swollen. Hopefully it’s nothing but I am told it could be something. I guess we will see.